Saturday, 28 August 2010

Analogy of life, version 2

This is quite similar to another post i have done, but at the same time its totally different. It's like a different topic within the subject. A bit like geometry and trig are totally different but still maths.

The other post was about how life was like a story. This time its from another perspective.

I was listening to some music the other day and a song came on called 'River of Dreams'. Ive heard the song many times, but this one time i actually stopped and thought about what the lyrics were.

The line from the song that is the focus for this post is:

''We all end in the ocean, we all start in the stream, we're all carried along by the river of dreams.''

To me this means that life is a river. We start off small with speed and noise, but then as we get older we grow, get slower and quiter. Constantly twisting and turning, hitting barriers and then overcoming them. Other people join us and stay with us, helping us to grow even more, to overcome more obstacles. The end of life lets us join all those who have gone before us, into the on-going and un-known (yes this is controversial but it's an opinion).

The last few words of the line are ''We're all carrired along by the river of dreams''. This can be true for anyone. Everyone has dreams.. a dream job, a dream car, a dream of how they want their lives to be. Its just a case of reaching out to the dream.

The lyrics are accurate because people strive to get to what they want (their dreams) and so move forward in life trying to follow a dream, decisions are based on that dream, and as you get older and you change as a person, the dream changes as well, and yet you still reach out and follow it.
We are carried through life by our dreams.
We are carried along our river of life by our dreams.

Monday, 26 April 2010

The 3rd Wheel

Its great being in a relationship. Nothing better than having someone there looking out for you. Believe me i know. M is just the best :p He listens when im rambling on, looks at me like im mad when im going crazy, and cheers me up when im down - and for that i wil be eternally greatful :)
But then someone else comes on the scene. A friend. But only known to your partner. And so the you start talking to that other person through your other half. Getting to know each other. Teasing the person in the middle. Becoming friends. Eventually you and your new friendbecome close, but you still dont know each other. The 2 of you still teasing the person in the middle. You are able to tell each other what that person is like at different times.
And then something happens that gives the opportunity for all 3 of you to be together at the same time. And you would be mad not to take it. And so you go. Anticipating the meeting with the unknown, with only what you have learned about them in the past couple of weeks to go on.
Then it happens. You are suddenly together. The 3 of you in one place. But of course there are no introductions because you know this person. You may not have met them before but you know them. And deep down you know you do.
Through the day you and your new friend talk. You smile. You laugh. You have a good time. Then your partner appears and wants to know why you are laughing and so you laugh even more and get strange looks off your partner. But they know that you are ok, and that you are having a good time. Throughout the day, as you and your friend carry on talking and laughing, your partner starts to get worried that you are talking about them, and no matter how much they want to know, they will not ask you what it was you were talking about. Because it is your conversation and they respect your privacy and know that you would never do anything to hurt or upset them.

This happens to lots of people. But to me this is specific to 3 people. A, M and myself. And to the day we spent at the track.
A is the great friend i first met yesterday through M and we got on brilliantly and i hope we will always be friends.
M is that person in the middle, the one who got me and A together. But he means so much more to me than i can say. And i know he will read this, and i hope this lets him know a fraction of how i really feel for him.


Thanks guys for everything :)

Tuesday, 20 April 2010

The surrounding people

Everyone needs friends to surround them. Someone who will jump out at you shouting 'boo' giving you a heart attack, or someone who is just there whenever you need a hug.

Everyone has friends surrounding them. Even if they think the whole world is against them. No-one ever realises how many peope would actually do anything for them.

The best friends are those that don't do anything incredibly noticable apart from to their friends. This is the person who will think of thousands of ways to get even with someone who stepped on your toe. They will walk into your house, treat it like they would there own and not ask for anything but just get it. They will make you look like a total idiot and then join in with whatever it is you are doing. They will be able to get away with murder with your parents and manage to keep you out of trouble at the same time. And then when you go through a rough patch they will be there for you; supporting you the whole way; encouraging you; assuring you that things will get batter again. They will be there listening to you rambling on. They will let you ruin their clothes as you cry on their shoulder.
You never lose a friend. You might not be in contact with them for a long time, but the friendship will not dissolve. It will be there always. As strong and firm as it always was. You can argue with a friend and then make up and it will be as if nothing had happened. If you stop being friends for a long period of time you will most likely get a second chance later on. You dont have to live near to your friend. Sometimes the distance can be better, you appreciate each other's company more, and the time together is more special.

Everybody needs friends surrounding them. Everybody has friends surrounding them.

Wednesday, 14 April 2010

Holiday Feelings

As you may have guessed from the title, this post is about school holidays. But before i get into it, i just want to clear one thing up.. For those of you who read my blog and M's blog, i did not steal his idea. He told me last week that he had got some inspiration and was writing a post. He did not tell me what it was. I then decided i knew what i wanted to write about. 2 days later, i read M's blog and realised we were writing about the same subject. However, this is a different approach to the subject although there are some similarities, but that cant be helped.



Feelings towards school and holidays are constantly changing. When you are little and just starting school, you love the holidays. But that is because your parents are not working (because you cant be left alone) you go on family holidays and you can do pretty much anything you like. Through primary school the holidays stay the same, you go on holiday with family, go round friends houses, go on day trips with a friend and their family etc etc.. You still love the holidays because you hate school. But then, when you get to high school and all the hormones set in, you start arguing with friends and have fall outs, which makes you long for the holidays, and then when you make friends again or make new friends, you dont care whether there is going to be a holiday or not because you get to see your friends everyday. And then the holiday comes, and you might not see them and you cant wait to get back to school.

Feelings for school changes parallel to the feelings for a holiday. Using myself as ann example, i used to love school (when i was little) but loved the holidays because of the free time, and the time to spend with my parents and borther. Then as i got older my parents started working more and more through the holidays and so i preferred to be at school because i could see my mates. At high school things changed and i hated school and so wanted the holidays even though my parents were not there. When i changed school again, i started to like school again because of my friends. This put a strain on the holidays because i had no way of getting anywhere and things started to bore me. It was harder to entertain myself for a couple of weeks. The through college, because of how i felt towards my school, i could not wait for a holiday, and yet, when the holiday finally arrived i could not wait to get back to college. Because there was still no way of getting anywhere to see anyone, everything gets boring after a couple of days and i was totally alone at home.

Also as you get older, you realise that the things that used to entertain you for hours now only keep you busy for a matter of minutes. This strains the holidays because you need to find more things to entertain you, which means that you eventually run out of things to do. Eventually you long to be going back to school/college/work and then when the time come you cant wait for the holiday and the cycle starts all over again.

Saturday, 3 April 2010

An Amusing Hack :)


Hi, the mysterious "M" again! Just thought I'd post this picture because its funny, and then on with my true purpose for hacking.
I have a blog, as previously stated in the last hack of this blog. I just thought I'd take the chance now to plug the fact that I have another blog now, one that ISN'T school related!
Go on.... I dare you.... :)

Monday, 29 March 2010

Title comes last..

So once again its been ages since ive posted.. and so, because of that, im not going to go over what has happened in the past.. instead im going to focus on the now.. and also, im going to set an alarm on my phone so that i remember to post things.. :D This post is a bit different to all my others, but then i am a different person, changing all the time, for better or worse is for time to tell, but for now, this is me and this is what i am thinking...

This is very much like writing an essay, or a story.. you need a beggining, a middle and an end.. and then something to write about.. but then there is one more thing, a title. Most people say a title comes at the start, but really it comes at the end. Because it is at the end that you know what you are talking about, and you know what you have done and so you are able to give it an effective name, to sum it up, and finish it completely.
Another thing that is like writing a story, is life. You dont write it, but you live it. And you put into it everything and anything you want, and you control what is happening. The only difference between life and a story, is that you dont write the story of another person. You can influence their own story, but not manipulate it. You can include other people as characters in your story, but they have stories of their own to write. But again, only at the end can you really some it up and give it a title. Only at the end can you look at everything you have done and say ''yes i did that, and it helped me to accomplish everything and be the person i am now.''
Some people try to come up with a title for their life at the start of their lives and then spend years trying to stick to it, they accomplish hardly anything, only ever working towards the one ending. But then there are those people who write their story as they are going. Constantly changing it and putting little twists in. Going with the flow of everything around them and always looking forwards. These people will achieve everything they truly want, and will get there in their own way.

Some people who read this might not understand quite a lot of what i have written, or will see it a different way to me, but that is not for me to solve. I understand and that is what matters, because this is my story..

Tuesday, 9 March 2010

March 9th

I have not put a post on here for nearly 2 months no, and so because of that ive been bugged by M at every chance he gets. Yes M did hack my account, but i dont really care, he does whatever he wants :) but this is me writing not him :) seeing as ive not posted for so long, im going to skip bits because its all the same really.. i dont have an incredibly thrilling life.. its always college, homework and weekends.. the weekends are good and there are sections that i will highlight, but most will be missed out..



College has been the same since i last posted, although there have been no more exams. The rest of january passed quite quickly. It was JM's birthday towards the end of january and so i went to her house for the party and stayed over :) the party was awesome, loads of people turned up. I only really knew about 10 people, but i chatted with some of the others and everyone had a good time :)

Then it was back to school again on monday and the routine started again.. The following friday, it was LN's birthday and she had invited me and a couple of her friends out to dinner with her family, and so we went to Las Iguanas in Leicester. The meal was really nice, as were LN's friends and family, although i have known her family for nearly 10 years (scary) ;)

For the next couple of weeks everything was the same as usual. College monday to friday, and then see M friday evening and sunday. (there is a paragraph about the weekends coming up later on, just skipping through stuff at the minute) :)February 3rd marked mothers's birthday. Because it was a weekday she decided that she didnt want to do anything special for it. She got presents from all of us, and cards from all the extended family, but other than that it was a normal day for everyone.

and again for now i must depart. My dinner is ready. I will carry on tomorrow morning before college and then when i return home and have done my hw.
and so for now goodbye to whoever is reading this :)

Friday, 26 February 2010

Random Hack :)

Hello world, it's the mysterious "M" that the normal blogger is constantly refering too :)

Before I'd even started to write this, she's already instructed me too put the text in green, but i may just be a total REBEL and not bother. Mostly because I'm extremely childish, but also she doesn't blog often enough, and I need to give her a reason to come on here! I am forever telling her to blog, but to no avail...

Currently, I am engaging in my favourite past time, which is putting music onto her computer. It's not exactly a crime on the plus side- we both have the same musical tastes, so no issues there. It's just for my entertainment, saves me using Youtube when I want a song I've been listening to at home, and she hasn't got the album with it on her computer :) Spot of live Paramore, and some My Chemical Romance; Simply marvellous.

That is, unlike the fact she just read this over my shoulder... The plan still remains however to log off and get on Facebook or something before she has the chance to realise. Be interesting to see how that goes...

Preferably and ordinarily, I could and would write more than this on a post, but I REALLY don't like this keyboard. The keys are waaaay to clunky and solid, you have to really hammer them to get them to work, but not in the same way you would if it was knackered and/or broken. Does hurt one's fingers after a while to be honest.

Anyways, general writing part over, now to move onto the plugging. I do have my own blog, but it's just a school one for Media Studies; Not desperately interesting, but I can't not plug it whilst I have this golden opportunity. Visit
http://www.bramfordlcmedia.blogspot.com/ for a gander :)

And now, my grand escape. You may see a blog appear thats NOT school related, thinking of doing my own, we shall see...

Thanks for (not) reading :)

The Mysterious "M".... ;)

Wednesday, 13 January 2010

college starts continued...

so its been nearly a week since i did the other bit, and yes i know i said i would do it on whatever day it was, but i was busy.. so im carrying on with it now..




sunday was just another chill out day for us :) none of us did much, although J did some uni work and i did some revision. After dinner we all sat at the table and played cluedo. Was a good game, although there was lots or debates over the rules even though we have had the game and been playing it for many years now. Eventually dad won although the rest of us were not far behind.


The first week of college was like any other before it.. the only difference with the lessons was that it was all revision for the exams in the following week. It started snowing on tuesday, and so (because the snow was quite bad) i got wednesday off school.. it was a good day to have off seeing as i only had 2 lessons. Thursday was my key skills exam. Because of the snow i was 10 minutes late, but thankfully they had not started, anticipating that somje people might be delayed due to the weather. The exam lasted an hour and a half, but both L and myself finished in about 40 minutes.. it was one of the easiest exams i had ever done..


Went to M's house on friday, after school. We did the same as we usually do when we are together, and as usual i had a great time :)


On Saturday we had to take J back to epsom. By the time we had left and got to his house, it was 4.00pm. We stayed to help him unpack all his bags and clean up a bit. His room was incredibly dusty.. While we were sorting things out, Li came in and asked if we wanted to join her and J for dinner. We said no because we wanted to get home because it would be a long journey back.. We eventually got back home at around 10.00pm and had food that was just lying around (either left overs or ready meals). M came over on sunday and again we did our usual sunday activities :) it was a nice, slow, relaxing day, just what i needed after a week of continuous revision and before a week of hard revision and exams.


Dad took me to college on monday, and the first thing on my agenda was the maths test i had been dreading.. i went into the hall, got my stuff ready and then went and sat down.. The paper was awful.. i managed to get all the way through the paper and had time to go over the questions i had missed or only half done. By the end i had done everything i could. Gma and Gdad were picking me up and taking me home seeing as i didnt have anything else on, and when i met gdad outsided the hall he said that every person who came out the hall had said that they hated the exam and thought it was really hard. That made me feel a bit better seeing as i wasnt alone in thinking that. The rest of the day was spent relaxing and doing more revision. Tuesday was a pointless day. We had to make profiling appointments with each of our teachers that lasted for 15 minutes. I made 3 of my appointments for wednesday, as i had an economics exam wednesday afternoon, but after making those 3, i was told that i could only see D on tuesday or thursday, which meant that i had to go in on thursday for 15 minutes!! I was not particularly pleased with the fact of that. When i got home i just did more revision and watched tv.. Wednesday was better.. I had to be in at 9.00am to see K for profiling and then just about straight after i had to see Mrs F and Mr H. The profiling appointments went by quite quickly and so i was then stuck for a couple of hours on my own with nothing to do before the exam. I ended up sitting at a computer in the study centre with my headphones plugged in watching the lion king 2: simba's pride. That took up most of the time and so when it finished i went and stood by a radiator outside the gym so that i could go and sit as soon as the doors opened.. The economics exam was actually ok.. I managed to answer every question and even had time to spare at the end. I left the gym feeling confident that i had done well(ish) and that confidence had me feeling good for the rest of the day..


After the economics exam i didnt have to go back into college for anything until monday because my law exam was on the following wednesday. I soent the time at home doing large amounts of law revision and just generally chilling out. Friday evening M came over. M is just so ''wonderful and amazing'' and i really dont know what i would do without him :).

Saturday was just another lazy day for me and the parents, we just did odd jobs around the house and did some shopping. I saw M again on sunday, went round to his house. We were going to go to priory park to watch a kartinng event but in the end we didnt go, but stayed in and watched a dvd.

The start of the following week was the same as any other. college in the morning on monday and then all day tuesday. Unfortunately, monday evening, the heating broke.. which meant that i was spending wednesday with gma and gdad because i didnt really want to spend the day in a rather chilly house. I was only going into college on wednesday for my law exam in the afternoon, so all morning i was revising as much as i could.

I came out of the exam feeling like i could have done a lot better. My timing had been really bad and so i didnt manage to finish the paper.. I wrote a lot for all the questions i did do, so hopefully i will get enough marks to make up for some of the marks i missed on the last couple of questions...

Thursday, 7 January 2010

College starts..

Im just going to get straight into it this time, cant think of anything to say to introduce it so here goes ;)


Saturday was a good day :) i got up late seeing as i had had another late night.. When i got up, mum told me that we were going to do an inventory of everything that we have in our freezers.. It took most of the morning to do all three freezers, but it wasnt too boring. When we were all back at home (dad had gone out somewhere) J went and watched tv while doing some work, and mum, dad and i played a game of monopoly :) because monopoly took so long and we needed to eat earlier than normal, mum got J to make dinner. We just had a normal carbonara that wasnt too hard to make and didnt take too long. It was a nic meal, and we ate while we carried on with monopoly. Eventually mum won monopoly after defeating first dad and then me.. it was not a proud moment for either of us, we got slaughtered.. Mum had made dad book tickets for us to go and see ''Avatar'' at the imax on saturday night, and so at about 8.30 we left home for the 10.30 showing. We were at the imax by 9.30 and so were then queing for over an hour before we could go in.. The film was amazing :D well worth the long wait. The only problem about the film, was that the glasses gave me a headache, and it lasted ages. We didnt leave the imax untill 1.30AM!! When we got home, i headed straight for bed and fell asleep almost instantly.

As you can tell by reading this, i havent actually got to the bit with college yet... this is because i am really slow and doing other things as well. But for now, my dinner is ready and i have to go so i will post this and then continue it again eeither later or tomorrow :) chow for now

Saturday, 2 January 2010

New Year

For me this is good.. this is the first time i have done 2 posts within a week.. but then i do have my own personal alarm that goes off whenever i should make a new post..
M came round on new years eve, we weren't actually much company for each other as he was doing homework and i was helping round the house in preparation for J and her family to come. but he was there, and thats what counted.. It was quite a long day for me, doing various jobs to make the house presentable for our guests.. I only had to finish tidying my room, dust the entire downstairs, clean out oscar and louie, hoover the playroom and dining room, wash the floor in the playroom and lay the table.. I also tried to help M with his homework by mentioning films that he could use.
When M left and i returned home, i went and got changed and the ust chilled out for an hour before J arrived. When they came they brought all their stuff inside, took it up into the various room in which they would be sleeping and then we all started talking. It was fun lively talk and we all caught up with each other on lots of subjects. About an hour after them arriving, we sat down for dinner. I, being fussy, decided that i didnt want what the others were having for their starter and so mother got me a box of melon to chew on instead :P When we had all finished eating, mum, E and JL left to do some tidying in the kitchen, leaving me, J, P, and dad talking. Me and J started planning a gap year that we would take after our A levels so that we could go travelling around the world. We were also planning what countries we would go to and where we could stay ( with friends or family in that area). P and dad said that we could go as long as we got jobs and paid for some of it ourselves, which neither of us minded. E and mum however were not so keen, especially my mum..
When we all moved back to the lounge, we started talking again and then put on singstar abba, which J had brought with her :) it was great fun, we all joined in and all sang different songs. Me and J rocked, we got the highest score out of everyone on the duet mode :P We did a couple of battles as well where it was boys v girls. Girls won hands down and then got accused of cheating when P and dad were the ones trying to steal our mic..
We stopped playing the game at 11.50 so that we could bring in the new year. Dad maade us all drinks, some alcoholic, others not. We joined in with the countdown on the tv and then all of us raised our glasses and shouted 'HAPPY NEW YEAR' at exactly 12.00. We then all gave each other a hug (the men shook hands) and kissed each other :) I managed to find some crackers and all of those were pulled as well :)
At about 12.30 we went back to singstar because the boys wanted a re-match, the girls still beat them.. E decided to go to bed at 2, and the other adults not long after. JL started playing on his playstation and me and J went and watched 'Monsters v Aliens' in the playroom. I fell asleep half way through and was then very surprised when J told me the film was finished. Me and J went to bed about 3.20 and then stayed up chating about all things random (including boys). My last New Year text came through at 4.00, just before i went to sleep.
In the morning i was woken up by J's phone vibrating. When we went downstairs, everyone else was already up and breakfast was just going out onto the table. We all, sat round the table eating cereal, fruit and croissants. After breakfast people did whatever they wanted and about an hour later J, P and E left. Me and mum then played on the wii, i thrashed her at tennis and boxing, but she beat me at bowling.. JL and dad were watching Dr Who when we joined them. Mum then went to make lunch and we ate around 2 ish, leaving me 30 minutes before i was being picked up by M and JB to go out with them.
When i got picked up, i went back to M's house and M, JB and i sat talking for an hour, before we were due to go out to M's granddads birthday at his aunts house. While we were at M's aunts house, we sat around talking (and drinking tea for some people). His family were all very nice, and included me in their conversations even though most of them had only met me once. When toby (the dog) was let out, he came straight over to me and tried to jump on me before he could be restrained. This happened several times before he calmed down a little bit. Food was served at 7ish and it was a buffet type thing. everyone ate/drank what they wanted and then the puddings came out and were put away wen everyone had, had what they wanted. M was not feeling very well, and got gradually worse throughout the evening and asked if it was ok if we could leave at 9.20. JB dropped me off at home and i told M to go home to bed and just relax. Whether he did or not i dont know.. When i got in my parents and JL were watching Dr Who part 2 so i sat and watched the end of it with them. I was rather sad when the Dr died, and i dislike the new Dr quite a lot. He is not the same!!! i want DT back!!!!! After Dr Who we watched TP's 'The Hogfather' which is quite an awesome film :) When mum decided to watch 'Hannibal Lector', i decided it was time for bed.

That is me once again updated.. M you should be proud of me (and yes i know you reminded me that i needed to do it again but still..)
Post again soon no doubt